Stuck in Nostalgia

I feel like as I get older, time passes so much faster than it used to. Sometimes I still feel like I’m 13. After COVID, nothing has felt the same. Even when I look at 17-year-olds now, I feel like I’m that age...but then I look closer and realize I’m so different. These years make such a huge difference, you’re not the same person you were last year... oh so many changes. Looking back at high school, it feels so far away now. Things like senior sunrise, or driving to school in my Honda Civic, picking up friends, blasting music, it all seems so long ago. I’m in such a different world now. It’s crazy how much has changed. I’m not the same as I was last year, or the year before, and I won’t be the same person next year. Always changing, the one constant.

Time passes in the blink of an eye, and suddenly you’re saying things like, “Back when I was in high school…” It makes me sound old, doesn’t it? I’ll always be nostalgic about every little thing, always bringing up the last. “The last time I walked these halls.” “The last time I drove to school.” Always taking a moment to appreciate the lasts and open the doors for the firsts. It’s scary, yet exciting.

I keep getting TikToks about 2006 nostalgia and stuff like that. And it makes me realize that what I grew up with is now starting to be considered old, I'm practically an aesthetic now. I guess this is how my mom feels when her music and clothes are now called “vintage.” Time passes, and next thing you know, we’ll be vintage too.

Even the newer generations are experiencing life so differently. They have their own memes, their own language. For example, we had “1738,” “21,” and now they’ve got “6, 7…” It’s kind of scary how I'm “unc” status now. Yet I’m still so young! What a juxtaposition, what an awkward point in life, where you’re not a child anymore, but not quite a full-blown adult. You’re just in the middle of it all, grappling with the loss of your childhood while being handed to take on bigger and bigger responsibilities.

As I enter my 20s and leave my teen years, I’m standing on the precipice of life. I’ve lived so much, but I still have so much left. So much to learn, so much to love, so much to achieve, and experience.

That's all, something to keep y'all thinking about....

xoxo, radio rebel

Senior Year of High School (circa May 2024)